Broken Heart

Heartbreaks are painful. We all have experienced heartbreak at some point in our life and if not I am truly so happy for you. But for those of us who have gone through this bitter yet sweet adventure of getting our heart broken we know how much it affects us mentally and physically.

When I had my break up and to me which was a very serious relationship, it affected me for almost two years, and those two years of my life  were filled with desperation, hope of somehow mending our relationship, tears and constant flashbacks of our moments together. I used to question myself that why did it happen to me? How was it so easy for him to move on in a span of less than two months when he used to always tell me and convince that he Loved me. I used to blame myself to the point when I thought maybe it was because I didn’t knew to love or maybe my love was not enough to make him stay. My mind became a bad neighbourhood pretty quick. Don’t get me wrong here our breakup was not an ugly one, it was kind of mutual even though we said some bitter words to each other in the heat of the moment, I always knew that none of us did anything wrong to each other when we were together. I used to miss him everyday, I used to call him message him and ask him why couldn’t we fix what we both broke. But he always made sure to let me know that it was over, he moved on and told me move on as well. I always used to be mad because my mind was not ready to accept the reality. Slowly I realized that he has moved on and I need to back off as well, so I blocked him off everywhere not because I hated him but because it was time for me to let go and I knew if I continue to talk to him or anything I could not move on. Initially it was hard for me, very hard in fact byt slowly but surely my mind was starting to calm down. My initial way of thinking was being replaced with this new found adaptation of self respect, self assurance and my ability towards positive growth. These new changes didn’t just came to me within a blink of an eye, I worked hard for it and towards the end  finally earned it. I was so much at peace and to this date I am at peace because after I stopped talking to him, I was vulnerable but I started to focus and realize so many things about me, the bad as well as the good abilities of mine. Instead of mending my broken relationship I started to mend my broken traits and uplift my good traits. I used to give myself a pep talk on a regular basis, and when I talked to myself I almost got all the answers to my questions that I always craved for.

Now when I look back I know that I loved him with all my heart and with that I  realized that I truly have the ability of Loving someone. And it’s a beautiful feeling to Love..so what if he didn’t really loved me, for him it was just an imaginary illusion of love towards me but I still hope that he finds someone whom he could truly love because like I said to love is a beautiful feeling.

So guy’s if you feel broken today, just be proud that you have the power and the most beautiful gift from nature that is To Love, you did your best be proud of that.